And today, with an internet connection that resembles an old 14 baud modem, with electricity going down continually, and with people coming for dinner soon and actually expecting some food, is still not that day.
Nevertheless, I'll spend a few moments on Palestine, although not on the topic I mentioned above.
A few days ago I had a fascinating interview with Dr Bayan al Hout. Dr al Hout is a well-known expert on Palestinian affairs who, among many other works, authored a (if not the) definitive investigatory work into the 1982 Sabra and Chatilla massacres. As a someone who experienced the dispossession of 1948 directly and as the wife of PLO co-founder, the late Shafiq al Hout, her experience of Palestinian affairs and Palestinian history is profound and very personal.
A couple of years ago Dr al Hout wrote an article which appeared in the Jerusalem Quarterly, "Evenings in Upper Baq’a: Remembering Ajaj Nuwayhed and Home". In this memoir, she describes her life as a child in Jerusalem and the events of 1948 and their aftermath. I found the article personally moving and very evocative of both the period and the events it discusses. In it, she paints a nuanced picture of the desire for return and its problems and contradictions. At the same time, she evokes a sense of loss that anyone can understand.
She also discusses the looting and decimation of her father's cherished library. Events of this kind, multiplied by the tens of thousands, constituted the very substance of the expulsion of the Palestinians from their homeland. They have been widely discussed and documented even by Israeli historians, never mind Palestinians. Yet they are so little known, even now, in the US that I thought it might be of interest to present Dr al Hout's personal account here as an example. With her permission, here are some passages from her article, starting with what happened to their house after the family left, thinking they would be returning within a few days or weeks at most:
Sitt Emily reported that they – the Israelis – were at first unable to open the door to our house (it was an indestructible solid iron door standing half-way up the staircase leading to the first floor). But they soon brought tall ladders they used to climb up to the large balcony, and managed to open the balcony door. Sitt Emily described her amazement at the Israelis’ persistence in entering the house in this manner: how could they inhabit a house accessible only by ladders? Then she went on to say that the reason for their behavior soon became apparent when a big, empty truck pulled up in front of the house, and she saw a large number of young men working together: some would toss down books from the balcony into the garden below, others gathered them in piles, while yet others would carry them to the truck, where the last group would stack them up. They worked tirelessly for several hours until they had looted the entire library. The Jewish family who seized and occupied the house later told her that they had found the bookcases completely empty.
Khaldoun, the author’s brother, with sister Jinan on the balcony from which the Jewish forces gained access and looted the library. Source: the author's family archives. |
What interests me is the issue that robs an entire nation of its sleep, the question of return. Some think that return means no more than going back to a house, farm, or orchard passed down from father to son. What manner of return would this be when Israel has transformed every one of Palestine’s landmarks and topographical features? It has destroyed entire villages, wiped out the names of cities, ripped up streets and torn down buildings at will, and plundered the contents of houses before seizing the houses themselves?
What would such a return be like?
I wonder at such a question, and pose another of my own: when did we ever truly leave our country, to be able to talk of returning to it? Does not our country live in our hearts day and night? Is it not with us? Who says that the homeland is no more than a house, or stones, or a title deed, the kind of document we call “koushan” in Palestine?
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I once asked my brother, if he were ever able to return to our house, found it just as we left it, and was allowed to bring back one thing only, what would he take? “The photo albums,” he promptly answered. I put the same question to my father, who answered with regret, “I’d bring the correspondence I had with my friends.” “What if you weren’t able to carry it all?” I asked. “I’d start with the letters from Emir Shakib Arslan.”
A view of the house at what is now No. 19, Rehov Harakevet. Source: taken in the late 1990s by a diplomat friend of the author |
Perhaps all this is no more than mere nostalgia – which is no sin. Nor is visiting one’s home. Yet the question remains: what is a home? What does the word mean? Home is the homeland. When Palestine is the homeland it is not so only for its people, but for those who love it, who believe its history, every era of its history with no exception, and place their trust in its heritage, its Aqsa Mosque and its Church of the Resurrection.